Monday, November 20, 2006

The deed is done

I quit my job. As suspected, the board president did not know anything about my concerns prior to my telling them to her, and she did everything she could to get me to stay. I agreed to stay as an employee through Dec 22, or until they find someone else, whichever is sooner. I also agreed to stay on as a consultant on a project basis if they don't find someone by Dec 22, meaning that I would continue to do the ongoing, basic projects but would not be "on call" for admin work and would not be liable for a certain amount of hours per week. But I also made it clear that I want to move on to do my own non-profit, so they don't need to keep me on just to appease me. I want to go ASAP.

It feels somewhat nice to know that they think it will take a while to replace me. I brought a lot to this job, and I think the board needs to think about the fact that it was the behavior of the executive director that encouraged me to leave. Hopefully they take that into consideration as they hire the new person.


Sunday, November 19, 2006

Time to open up a bit

It's been a while since I blogged about personal things that are happening in the world of Erin, so I thought I would take this time to let you in on some of my "goings-on."

I think I am going to quit one of my "day" jobs. The lucrative one. And soon. The reason being... the executive director of this company is an excellent people person and a good "face" on the company, but is not very good at managing employees. I work part time, from home, for a maximum of 25 hours per week. But even if I have already worked my hours for the week, she somehow expects that if she or a board member drops the ball on a project, me or my co-worker need to jump to their rescue. Which causes a lot of overtime that we do not get paid for, except to say that the following week I can work fewer hours. But this is actually not the case, because the following week the same thing happens all over again.

This last time, I expressed my concern that by adding this last minute project, I would not be able to finish the other very important project for that week. I told her I could easily do 25 hours, but no more, and she could choose which project she wanted me to focus on. I could even get this last minute project done quickly by working more hours per day at the beginning of the week, but I could not go over 25 total because I has a show opening. Well, this was not a good thing to say, apparently, because her reaction was to say, "I can see you are very busy. Your acting career sounds like it is going well. Maybe it is time for us to look for someone who is more available for us."

I don't take kindly to being threatened, or respond well to the type of conversation that followed. She proceeded to tell me about several areas of my work that she had been unhappy with (news to me). Clearly, she was in no mood to actually try to work through the problems, but only use them as fodder in trying to get me to take on the project I did not have time to do. She said something like, "Moving forward, we have to find a way of working together that is good for the both of us." So I said, "Um, I have just be handed a last minute project. I told you I would do it but other things would have to wait. I reorganize my schedule so that I complete the project in the record time you are requiring, and now you are telling me you think you might need to find someone else? I am not sure, at this point, if I WANT to find a better way to work together. I am going to have to really think about this situation and figure out what I want to do."

Needless to say, she started backpedaling immediately, saying that she had a really awful weekend and that things were falling apart around her. Never apologizing, but backpedaling. Since then she has been cordial, basically acting like nothing has happened, though she did email me to say that, sure enough, the project was NOT supposed to be on my plate (it was for someone else), and I should have told her that when we first started speaking. What????

This happened almost two week ago, so I have been preparing myself for leaving. I mean, even if we forget what happened, this feeling will still be hanging over me. This is not the first time I have been treated strangely (I was admonished for using more than one exclamation point in my emails- true story). And there is some sort of weird hierarchy (read: corporate) where it is clearly unreasonable for me to speak my mind, or hold them to their commitment of only asking me to work 25 hours per week. It's bad energy, and the work does not fulfill me, so it is time to go.

What this does for me, though, is it allows me to open up possibilities for doing other consulting work that I do enjoy, in the areas of arts marketing and coaching. So, if you happen to know anyone who needs a marketing consultant (including web design) or wants someone to coach them through some audition monologues or how to make it in the business of acting, I am your gal.

PS- No exclamation points were used in the making of this rant. But I did use 4 question marks in a row. Snap.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I Believe...

I got this in my inbox from my dear friend, John, and thought I would pass it on to you. It's a long one, but I think it is worth it:

I Believe

I believe- That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe- That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and, you must forgive them for that.

I believe-That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe- That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe- That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe-
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe- That you can keep going long after you can't.

I believe- That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe- That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe- That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe- That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe- That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe- That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time!

I believe- That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe- That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe- That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe- That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe- That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe- That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe- That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe- That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other, And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe- That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe- That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe- That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe- That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I believe- That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe- That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I believe- That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in.

I believe...

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